It took me 500 miles to release you from my mind. It’s not often that a guy will see me truly & I only showed you a speck, but that seemed to send me into a spiral.
At the start, you told me I was intimidating to you. That should have been a red flag for me. I am at a point in my life where I am sick of settling for guys that cannot handle me. My sisters have been teaching me that I need an alpha male. It is one thing to take charge of me physically & turn me on in the bedroom, but that’s not enough for me anymore. I want to take leaps of faith into one another’s mind. I want the rawness… the full experience, even if it ends in flames.
I am only beginning to recognize that I am so grateful to have met you & that it was not a waste of time. Thank you for how much you made me laugh. It was to the point where I would be laughing out loud while I was alone, just reminiscing about funny things you said or did. Thank you so much for that. Thank you for showing me several characteristics that I desire in a man. You showed me the possibilities that are out there. Thank you for the adventures, the restaurants you took me to, the forests we played in. Thank you for loving on me for the time that you did & for sharing your fears & desires with me.
But, I cannot deny the emotional pain I experienced. I cannot deny the confusion, the tears I cried, the anger I felt. It was dreadful for me to walk on eggshells around you & to present an image of myself that I was not.
As an artist/writer I tend to romanticize the pain & turn it into something beautiful… something magical… but reality hits hard & deep. I painted a picture over you, trying to make you into something you weren’t & that is something I can now learn from. I know there are people out there that won’t be intimidated by the love I have to share, but will join in excitement… ones who will not be afraid to express to the world the passion they feel.
You showed me where I needed to heal, where my strength was lacking. You reminded me of the courage & fire that simmers within my being… that if I can conquer mountains, I can overcome anything. Thank you for sharing this energetic dance with me. I love you. ❤️
At the start, you told me I was intimidating to you. That should have been a red flag for me. I am at a point in my life where I am sick of settling for guys that cannot handle me. My sisters have been teaching me that I need an alpha male. It is one thing to take charge of me physically & turn me on in the bedroom, but that’s not enough for me anymore. I want to take leaps of faith into one another’s mind. I want the rawness… the full experience, even if it ends in flames.
I am only beginning to recognize that I am so grateful to have met you & that it was not a waste of time. Thank you for how much you made me laugh. It was to the point where I would be laughing out loud while I was alone, just reminiscing about funny things you said or did. Thank you so much for that. Thank you for showing me several characteristics that I desire in a man. You showed me the possibilities that are out there. Thank you for the adventures, the restaurants you took me to, the forests we played in. Thank you for loving on me for the time that you did & for sharing your fears & desires with me.
But, I cannot deny the emotional pain I experienced. I cannot deny the confusion, the tears I cried, the anger I felt. It was dreadful for me to walk on eggshells around you & to present an image of myself that I was not.
As an artist/writer I tend to romanticize the pain & turn it into something beautiful… something magical… but reality hits hard & deep. I painted a picture over you, trying to make you into something you weren’t & that is something I can now learn from. I know there are people out there that won’t be intimidated by the love I have to share, but will join in excitement… ones who will not be afraid to express to the world the passion they feel.
You showed me where I needed to heal, where my strength was lacking. You reminded me of the courage & fire that simmers within my being… that if I can conquer mountains, I can overcome anything. Thank you for sharing this energetic dance with me. I love you. ❤️