by Goda | Jul 13, 2020 | Hawaii
July 13, 2020: I’ve been crying a lot the past several days. It feels like I’ve been getting hit with triggers like rapid fire. My friend Clyde was driving Simas and I to Kona and I received a text from my dad expressing how disappointed he has been with me and my...
by Goda | Jul 12, 2020 | Hawaii
July 12, 2020 There were two guys I met on the island a few years ago that I’ve been having a difficult time letting go of in my mind. I shared a romantic, emotional and physical connection with each of them. Throughout the years I reminisce about the moments we...
by Goda | Jul 11, 2020 | Hawaii
July 11, 2020: I went to the trading post and saw Zion after not seeing him for several weeks. I felt caught off guard and found myself feeling stupid/ditzy and unable to hold a normal conversation. What is up with that? Why do I give him so much power? I’ve been...
by Goda | Jul 8, 2020 | Hawaii
July 8, 2020: Today, Clyde, Simas and I were walking through Volcano National Park, and Clyde goes, “Nature is art! Nature is God’s creation!” And for the first time, I really questioned that. I looked around me and thought to myself, But it is so awestruckingly...
by Goda | Jul 4, 2020 | Hawaii
July 4, 2020: I can’t take this world seriously anymore. It’s becoming difficult for me to put meaning to everything that appears to be happening. I’ve been experiencing it specifically in the patterns that are moving through me, whatever forms that it may take....
by Goda | Jul 3, 2020 | Hawaii
July 3, 2020: I’ve been having intense sexual perceptions, just in a different way. Today, I went to the Rainbow gathering with Bruno, Synnamon and Simas. I noticed how often I try to fit in. I ended up candy flipping lightly and I often found myself trying to be cool...
